Today is the end

I got an email yesterday from the Realtor which let me know that the property is being closed on today. It is probably happening right now, or it is already over. I can picture them all sitting around a large oval table that has been polished to a rich sheen (possibly papers slide across it more easily that way).

It is bittersweet day for me. I had high hopes, but I am also glad to have closure.

My highest hopes are that whoever has bought it will love it and enjoy it and care for it. It is a treasure and like most treasures it is rare and costly.

Soli Deo Gloria

prayer

Praying for God to bring our family to live on the farm where I lived as a young child seems very selfish in the light of the current destruction, human suffering and death in Japan where the tide is bringing in a harvest of dead bodies. Another tide of radiation is flowing over the land. The tide of suffering and brokenness that flows from the heart of each victim, each family member, each volunteer, each and every person that is witness to these catastrophic events, is so great that only our Heavenly Father can comprehend it's magnitude. Only he can bear the burden of so much sorrow.

Spring seems surreal suddenly; the gentle beauty of blades of fresh green grass pushing up in small tufts from beneath the brown vestiges from last autumn, the flight of the mourning doves as they flit about looking for a safe nesting spot, the crisp clean fragrance of the air as it is filled with the scent of all the things growing anew in the damp earth. Once we even woke up to a landscape sprinkled by a gentle spring rain, something that we don't usually experience in this arid climate.

Spring is happening. It is not any less real then last year or any year before.

And neither is our God. He is still as real, still as powerful, still as interested in the minute details of our everyday lives. My heart breaks for the people of Japan and all those who are suffering everywhere. I am called by God to be like him, to be caring, compassionate, and empathetic. I am called to intercede in prayer for those who suffer. How any one's heart cannot call out to the Lord on behalf of these victims is incomprehensible to me. We should never be so caught up in our own lives that we cannot "weep with those who weep, and morn with those who morn". Yet God has room for all our requests, one does not eclipse the other. Now I have more petitions to bring before the Lord, more reasons to humble myself before him and to throw myself upon his mercy and grace. Persistence in prayer is so important. It is so easy to tire when we see no immediate results. There is no fast-prayer drive up, no express prayer aisle (10 times or less!), and no one-click praying. Prayer is about relationship and knowing God. Interceding on behalf of the victims in Japan is the privilege to come into the throne room of grace. I get to humble myself before the Creator of the Universe and beg him to intercede, comfort and heal. No request is too large or too small to be of importance to our Heavenly Father.

Our answered prayers seem insignificant in the light of the great need we perceive. Yet the needs of humanity are no larger today then they were last week. It is just harder for us to ignore them when they are visible to us. Now we are seeing physical evidence of destruction, but sin is ravaging humanity every day. The urgency is ALWAYS this great even though we don't always see it.

"He did it with all his heart and prospered."

-2 Chronicles 31:21

"Whole-heartedness shows itself in perseverance; there may be failure at first, but the earnest worker will say, "It is the Lord's work, and it must be done; my Lord has bidden me do it, and in His strength I will accomplish it." Christian, art thou thus "with all thine heart" serving thy Master?"

-from the March 15th Evening reading, Morning and Evening by C.H. Spurgeon

For a recording of "If with all your hearts" by Mendelssohn (which is an adaptation of Jeremiah 29:13) click here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUfyGNwbxYw

I have sung this song multiple times and the promise of God's presence is a comfort and shield to me.

a year later

It is so strange that it has been almost exactly a year since my last post. A year before that I was in NJ trying to find some way to fund the purchase of my childhood home.

Our brain must store hope and pain, longing and desire in some way that it is rekindled by the seasons, awakened once again by the cycle of time that courses on year after year. I thought perhaps I had "gotten over" this whole thing. Yet I was saddened by my lack of persistence and how easily our minds give way to the "tyranny of the urgent".

Spurgeon, my constant mentor through his enduring work "Morning and Evening" convicted me once again of my inconstancy in prayer.

"The more spiritual the exercise, the sooner we tire in it. The choicest fruits are the hardest to rear: the most heavenly graces are the most difficult to cultivate. Beloved, while we do not neglect external things, which are good in themselves. we ought also to see to it that we enjoy living, personal fellowship with Jesus." -Evening of January 24 from "Morning and Evening"

As long as I felt that there was still something I could do, some hope in my works, I kept my hand to the plow and my heart in prayer. Once all my options had been expended, all hope of human aid gone, my heart grew weary in hoping. So much for " faith is substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen" Hebrews 11:1. If I needed some viable options to keep me going then I was hoping in what I could see and not in the unseen.

I admit it, I no longer feel certain that God is going to give us the farm. I feel concerned that I was presuming upon the Lord, finding in his word an assurance of what I so desperately wanted to see, an earthly hope. God is constantly showing me that my hope is in him, for this world and the next. Do I think God will still miraculously give us the farm? All I can say is that HE CAN! It may be his will to show himself strong in this way. I know that he calls upon me to be persistent in prayer and to trust in him alone. It hurts to want something, to long for a home that may never be mine again. But God calls us to bring our requests before him and to trust him with our longings and hopes.

"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:6-7

I need that peace about this issue, oh how I need it. My heart aches because I may never walk that broken asphalt drive between house and barn again. I may never see my children run the pathway between house and cottage, the cottage my father built for my mother and he to share while I was waiting inside my mother's womb. These things may never be mine to share but the ache is real and my hope persists. So I call upon the name of the Lord, Creator of Heaven and Earth as he hears my prayer. I know full well that my longing is is some part for heaven and also for a childhood lost so I trust him for his answer and his peace.

Coincidence?

We never know when God will chose to step in and interrupt our lives. Just when we start to feel safe and comfortable with things as they are we may find that God wants us to get a little uncomfortable again. Sometimes the way God works may seem like coincidence. Or maybe we just find it's easier to rationalize it that way. But if God didn't speak why pray?

"And when the chief priests and scribes saw the wonderful things that he did, and the children crying in the temple, and saying, Hosanna to the son of David; they were sore displeased.
And said unto him, Hearest thou what these say? And Jesus saith unto them, Yea; have ye never read, Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings thou hast perfected praise? "
Matthew 21:15-17
So often the Lord uses my three little girls to convict me and to speak to my heart. Their beautiful faith and purity of trust remind me of what my love for Him should be. Last week we were studying a chapter on diligence in their devotional book. It is a simple book focused on getting the heart of the message into the heart of a child. At the end of each chapter are some application questions and activities. We went through each one. The last one was this..."Romans 12:2 says, 'continuing instant in prayer.' Find a prayer request, pray diligently, and continue until God answers your prayer." Straight forward enough. My thoughts immediately went to our hopes for the farm and the way I believed I saw God using it in our lives. I said nothing about it though. "Probably just my own will coming up to the surface." I thought," I shouldn't bring it up again in front of the girls. Why drag them along on that emotional roller coaster if I am not sure it is God's will?" Then our oldest daughter who is all of six, spoke up. "We should pray for the farm." I tried to explain why I was hesitant to pray for such a thing. "Maybe that's just not what God has for us". "We can't just give up." she insisted. "We have been praying about this for so long, for like years. We need to be diligent." Unconvinced but pricked in my conscience, I subtly changed the subject.
A few days later we were all sitting together in the living room getting ready for my husband to leave for a few days on a work trip. Our second daughter who is four, asked if we could pray. "Can we pray for the farm Daddy? I think we should be praying about that." My husband looked at me questioningly and we silently agreed. Why not? So sitting there we lowered our heads, joined hands and beeseched the Almighty Creator of the universe, of all that is, seen and unseen, to intervene on our behalf. If it would please Him and bring Him great glory we asked that He would bring this impossible thing to pass.

Then Yesterday when I was checking my email I saw an email from an address I didn't quite recognise. I wondered if I should delete it but then I suddenly remembered. This email was from the owner of the farm. I hadn't heard from him in 9 months since I had sent him a message letting him know that we had explored all the avenues that we could think of and all of them were dead ends. If we were going to buy back the farm it would have to be a miraculous answer to prayer. I never got a response to that email. Now after all this time he was writing me again. He included some pictures of the farm house with details as to the renovations and clean-up they are doing. They have lowered the price quite a bit despite all the money they are putting into it. It was exiting to hear that they were making the place beautiful again. More exiting though, is that after all this time the Lord was bringing it back into our lives as a result of the prayers of our children. Can we afford the farm now any more then we could 9 months ago? No. Do we feel the pull of the Holy Spirit convicting us to be diligent in prayer even though it is impossible? Yes. So if you feel encouraged or convicted join with us. If you think I'm a nutcase don't. Still I know the Lord is not done with this yet and He is going to use this in our lives to show himself strong.
The next chapter in the girl's devotional book is on patience. "Be ye also patient, stablish your hearts..." James 5:8
Is this mere coincidence or the divine workings of the Holy Spirit? It is good to be discerning but how sad I would be to miss the Lord's fingerprints on my life simply because he conceals His hand.
"Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints..." Ephesians 6:18
Praying and watching. Amen

patience is a...

"Patience is a virtue."
"Good things come to those who wait."
"Anything worth having is worth waiting for."

We have all heard these venerable saying about patience. Upon hearing them recited we may respond with an inward groaning. These are not the bits of advice upon which we earnestly wish to meditate. We want an answer. Waiting, resting, trusting, persevering; if only we could avoid these tedious virtues and get on with it.
Another haggard old proverb to which we often give little heed is, "Fools rush in where angels fear to tread." What does that even mean?
To rush ahead and take the prize before you have finished the race. To go ahead and DO SOMETHING before you are sure of the right thing to do. If you have ever bought something on credit because you didn't have the money to buy it when you wanted it, you may have been guilty of rushing in.
We live in a world of microwave cooking; drive-up fast food; downloadable TV, movies, and music; driving superfast on superhighways; loose-10 pounds-in-10 day fad diets; buy it now and don't and pay anything for six months; work from home part time and make $5000 a month; bad-credit-no-credit-no-problem; instant soup; instant oatmeal; instant breakfast; instant messages; instant credit; instant tax refund loans; well you get the idea.
If it is worth having, why wait, right?

The Bible's confronts our culture of instant gratification.

Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring [it] to pass.
And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.
Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him...
Psalms 37:3-7a

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but [when] the desire cometh, [it is] a tree of life.
Proverbs 13:12

In God's word we are not implored to practice patience as an aesthetic discipline. We are commanded to put our trust in God and to wait upon him for his perfect will to be accomplished. It is not waiting for waiting's sake. It is waiting upon the Lord to know him, to see Him at work in our lives, to give Him praise and glory, and to declare His works before men. If I am rushing ahead am I not like Sarai who tried to work out God's promise of making Abram a great nation in her own way?


And Sarai said unto Abram, Behold now, the LORD hath restrained me from bearing: I pray thee, go in unto my maid; it may be that I may obtain children by her. And Abram hearkened to the voice of Sarai.
Genesis 16:2

It is only two verses later when Sara starts to regret having persuaded her husband in this matter. God had promised Abram "he that shall come forth out of thine own bowels shall be thine heir." (Genesis 15:4b) Sarai saw her own barrenness and sought her own solution. If God had promised Abram an heir, and he had made her barren, then their must be some alternative way for Abram to sire an heir. The facts already showed that Sa rai herself wasn't going to be the one to give Abram a child, so she would find someone else to do it.

We need to ever be mindful of who we are putting our trust in lset our patience falter. If we turn aside to the righthand or to the left we will seek a practical solution instead of waiting for the miraculous one.

In the new testament book of Hebrews, Sarah (formally called Sarai) is mentioned in the great chapter on faith.

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
For by it the elders obtained a good report.
Through faith also Sara herself received strength to conceive seed, and was delivered of a child when she was past age, because she judged him faithful who had promised.
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset [us], and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of [our] faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Hebrews 11:1,2+11; 12:-2

Why is she mentioned here? She seems to have a tract record of being impatient and unfaithful. Yet the Lord worked in her heart and it says she was given a child in her old age because she trusted God at his word. It is faith in the Lord, it is believing at his word that lets us "run with patience".

Lord, I look to you this day to do "exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to [your] power that worketh in us". Help me to be patient because I am looking to you, and judging you as faithful who has promised it .-Amen

looking into the past

Altering the blog has been hard for me. I miss the warm green lushness of the springtime pictures, how they glowed with life.
I was so hopeful when I first posted a few months ago. It was January and winter was exercising a firm grasp yet spring reigned in my heart. I was looking forward with open eyes and heart, waiting on my Heavenly Father with eager expectation.
A few months have passed now and spring is lifting its splendid head. Daffodils have freed themselves from their long soil bound captivity, the air is crisp, rich with moisture and promise.
My heart is not ready to leave winter though, not ready for life to descend upon the farm that I have left behind. I look at the few pictures that I have of it from our recent visit and all is grey and sleeping. I cannot go back to winter. I cannot go back to my childhood home. I cannot curl up cozy cat style in front of the hearth while my grandmother busies herself in the kitchen. I need to find hope again yet my heart fails within me. Winter was my time of comfort, innocence from details, my refuge from facts and figures, mortgages and business plans. We had a dream then. We sheltered a hope within our breasts which we knew only the great and mighty God could accomplish yet I have let the immenseness of the thing wash over me. Now Lord, wash me in your immensity. Lift up my eyes from the waves and back to your countenance. With your great patient love teach my heart again to trust in your plan. All this impossibility can serve you.

When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.
1 Corinthians 13:11-12

Since our visit last month to the farm we have had to face some facts. There are no programs available to help beginning farmers acquire land. Lenders require a fifteen percent down payment on farm purchases. The monthly payment on a loan of that size would be crippling at the outset anyway. Our prayer is that the Lord will use these obstacles to declare His greatness should he see fit to lead us back to my first home. I was a child. I am growing up.

"I do believe but help my unbelief I've seen hard times and I've been told There is a reason for it all" -Alison Krauss

catching up

It has been so long since I have written because we have been busy, busy about the farm.
The more we know, the more we know that only God can do this amazing work, the more we call out to him for direction and help.
We have been looking into the options, finding facts, building a workable farm plan, and praying, a lot.
Some of the things we have discovered is that this farm is a great place to implement our farm model.
The first aspect our our farm plan is to start a CSA based on the square foot gardening method. There is a field with full sun close to the house. There is access to water and electricity. We wouldn't have to disturb the existing soil. We could just build the boxes and get started.
The the lower part of this same field would be a perfect spot for a test plot of American Chestnuts interplanted with blueberries. We have found a partner at the American Chestnut Foundation who is very interested in helping us implement this project.
Byran is searching out the option of running a saw mill and making flooring and molding from trees that would be harvested from the property. He could also purchase logs from a supplier to help support the other operations of the farm.
The two other possible sources of income would be renting out one of the two houses and boarding horses in the horse barn.
There is SO MUCH to consider and SO MUCH to learn. Our main obstacle as always is funding. We are exploring the option of becoming a non-profit, but then we couldn't own the property ourselves, the non-profit would, and I suppose the non-profit could at some point find someone else to run it. Ouch!
So we continue to seek advice, look for partner organizations, and ask the Lord to guide us. Where will all this lead? We are unsure, but we know the Lord is at work. Tomorrow, I will fill you in on our visit to see the farm and our families. For now here are some words that have spoken to our hearts...
"Frequently the Holy Spirit brings to our remembrance with life and power words of the Lord which else we might have forgotten. He also sheds a new light upon well remembered passages, and so reveals a fullness in them which we had little suspected. In cases known to me , the texts have been singular, and for a while the person upon whose mind they were impressed could hardly see their bearing. ...
Before this dispensation shall close, we doubt not that every sentence of Scripture will have been illustrated by the life of one or the other of the saints. Perhaps some obscure and little-understood promise is still lying by until he shall come for whom it was specially written."
-C. H. Spurgeon
from According to Promise
A section from According to Promise is printed each month in our church's newsletter. Each month I look forward to reading the next selection. The words of Spurgeon on this subject have spoken deeply to my heart. They have also brought to remembrance verses that were impressed upon my heart last year when we first starting praying about this property. I was working though a wonderful study by Andrew Murray entitled Waiting on God when these words acquired new significance for me.
"Wait on the Lord, and keep his way, and he shall exalt thee to inherit the land..."
Psalm 37:34
Could the Lord really be using this verse to speak to us about our current prayers? The verse was burned into my memory but I feared I might be abusing Scripture to comfort myself. My husband asked me about that verse again recently and I have been taking this verse to the Lord. Is He using these words written by David long ago to speak to us now? Is that what Spurgeon meant when he penned the aforementioned passage?
We pray the Lord will continue to guide us into his truth so that we will rightly divine his purposes for our lives and bring only glory to His holy name.

Shall I die of thirst?

I have never felt the Lord's presence in my life or such reliance on Him as I enjoyed last week. I was calling out to the Lord, minute by minute, for His answer to prayer, for His glory to be accomplished, for Him to bring a buyer to our house. I was waiting with eager anticipation for God to show forth His glory though answered prayer. What a time of sweet fellowship with Him! What a blessing? I was longing after the Lord and believing He would show himself strong. I have always loved Psalm 42. David is longing for God, desiring that God would shine forth to him and through his life.
As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God. My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God? My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me;...Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance. Psalm 42:1-4a, 5
Where is my God? Will He hasten to our aid to show himself strong before those whom we have declared His praises? Have I mislead myself into believing that God was leading us to pray in a certain way?
I admit my faith has faltered this week. My face has been turned towards our situation, towards the reactions of people with whom we have shared our hopes and not turned towards the help of his countenance.
I have been crying out to the Lord to "help thou my unbelief", but my heart has been disquieted within me. This morning I had great encouragement from two different people. Through the course of their daily devotions he brought these texts to them and they felt encouraged to share them with me.
First was an email from my mother...
Only the Holy Spirit knows what God is doing by waiting to answer your prayer. Martha and Mary ask for Christ to come but he waited until after Lazarus died, which was beyond their understanding before he did come so as to bring even GREATER glory to His eventual action! Whatever he has for you is greater than that which you are asking him for...that was in a nut shell the study for today in experiencing God. I was excited and nearly phoned you then remembered you might not appreciate being awakened at 3 a.m....Stay strong in Him! Your faith will be rewarded!
Much love,
Mom
The second came as a phone call from my sister. She was reading Spurgeon's Morning and Evening last night and felt led to shared these words with me...
"He was sore athirst, and called on the Lord, and said, Thou hast given this great deliverance into the hand of Thy servant: and now shall I die of thirst? Judges 15:18
Samson boasted right loudly when he said,"I have slain a thousand men." His boastful throat soon grew hoarse with thirst, and he betook himself to prayer. God has many ways of humbling His people. Dear child of God, if after great mercy you are laid very low, your case is not an unusual one. When David had mounted the throne of Israel, he said," I am this day weak, though anointed king." You must expect to feel weakest when you are enjoying your greatest triumph. ...So, tried brother, cheer your heart with Samson's words, and rest assured that God will deliver you ere long. (Morning and Evening, pg 43)
We so desire for God to show Himself strong in our lives. We want it to be God's glory that is declared before His people. We are thankful for His answering our prayers by providing us with plane tickets home. We also continue to ask for strength and faith, hope, peace and love. I ask for myself; patience and perseverance.
Samson thirsted for water, David was athirst for the Lord. God quenched both their of their thirsts. Today, I thirst for God. I also ask Him to continue to reveal Himself and His direction for our lives. As I see God working in our hearts I realize how weak I truly am. Therefor I cry out unto the Lord again, "Heavenly Father, continue your work. Amen"

answered prayer

Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us, Unto him [be] glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen
Ephesians 3:20-21

Praise the Lord for hearing us. No, we haven't found a buyer for our house, but we are seeing the Lord at work. About a week ago, I was surfing around for affordable plane tickets for. We weren't planning on a trip, but I was hoping for one. I wanted to go back and see the farm again, to share it with my husband. I thought seeing it would help grow us together in this journey. I wanted to make it happen.
Fortunatly the prices were too high. We couldn't just take off work for a pleasure trip anyway. My husband wanted to save his vacation time so he could see his brother when he got leave, and we didn't know when that would be. He also needed that time off to work on on our roof. Did I mention it leaks and we need to replace the whole roof, not just the shingles?
I was getting anxious, trying to take this journey back from the Lord. So, I closed the computer and then closed my eyes. "Dear Lord, if you want us to go home soon, you do it. If you want to do, you do it."
Leaving it in His hands is the hardest part. "The Lord helps those who help themselves" may not be anywhere in God's word, but it certainly is in His churches.
The following day Bryan was speaking to his parents on the phone. His brother was going to have leave earlier then anyone expected. He was coming home from Iraq next month. Now my husband did want to go back east, and next month even.
So we prayed. We prayed for plane tickets that we could afford, a good deal. We had spent around $800 last year when we bought plane tickets to fly back east. Something around that price for 4 tickets would be a good deal. So I have been looking. Searching every which way I could think of, but everything was around a thousand or more...too much. Then last night we checked and we found them, plane tickets for $875. This was more like it. But then I noticed something I hadn't even thought to ask for. A travel deal. Four round-trip tickets and a mid-size rental car (with unlimited miles), for a total price of $818. Wow, less money for more. We prayed about it, asking the Lord that if this was what he wanted us to do, that it would still be available after my husband got to speak with his supervisor today.
His supervisor O.K.d our travel dates, so I checked again today. "Thank you Lord for your provision." It was still there and one dollar less, at $817.
So we wait, and we pray for the Lord to continue this good work that he has started. To His praise and glory.

setting out a fleece

I have heard a lot of different opinions voiced from the pulpit and otherwise regarding Gideon and the fleece business. Some commentators have suggested that it illustrated a lack of faith on Gideon's part. God was speaking to him through the physical appearance of an angel. The angel had even brought fire out of a rock. Still Gideon wanted to make sure of what God was saying.
And Gideon said unto God, If thou wilt save Israel by mine hand, as thou hast said, Behold, I will put a fleece of wool in the floor; and if the dew be upon the fleece only, and it be dry upon all the earth beside, then shall I know that thou wilt save Israel by mine hand as thou hast said. And it was so; for he rose up early on the morrow, and thrust the fleece together, and wringed the dew out of the fleece, a bowl full of water. And Gideon said unto God, let not thine anger be hot against me, and I will speak but this once: let me prove, I pray thee, but this once with the fleece; let it now be dry only upon the fleece, and upon all the ground let there be dew. And God did so that night; for it was dry upon the fleece only, and there was dew on all the ground. Judges 6:36-40

Was he just afraid of what God had asked him to do? Was he looking for a way out?
When I mention my firm belief that God is going to give us this farm, the response of most has been "why do you think that?". Even though I have had many confirmations along the way that I believe were God moving us in this direction, it doesn't seem to be enough to convince anyone. I, like Gideon want to be sure of God's plan for our family. We don't want to be deceived in our minds. God says in Romans 14:5 One man esteemeth one day above another: another esteemeth every day alike. Let every man be fully persuaded in his own mind. God does want us to be sure of what he is calling us to.

Hast thou faith? have it to thyself before God. Happy is he that condemneth not himself in that thing which he alloweth. And he that doubteth is damned if he eat, because he eateth not of faith: for whatever is not of faith is sin. Romans 14:22-23

We are all called to the same high standards of God's law, but we are each called to live by faith on all the other issues of life. If "whatever is not of faith is sin" then I come before the Lord this day asking that he would "help thou mine unbelief" (Mark 9:24). I ask the Lord to confirm his direction in our lives, if this be his direction, and to wet our fleece. If it be His will that we should move forward with the farm, I humbly ask that he would bring us a buyer for our house. Our house isn't on the market. We have no sign outside and no one knows that we are looking to sell. I ask that even this week he would bring someone into our lives who is interested in buying our house. Our house is under construction, it has a leaky roof, and the housing market stinks. Only God could bring a buyer to our door. So I ask Him to do the impossible, if it so be His will.

After Gideon realised that he had been face to face with the Lord's angel he was afraid. The angel had already disappeared but still God spoke to him "Peace be unto thee: fear not: thou shalt not die. Then Gideon built an alter there unto the Lord, and called it Jehovah-shalom." (Judges 6:23-24)

Jehovah-shalom; The Lord send peace.